Wednesday, October 11, 2006
OK. I am now
loaded with work to do and sandwiched between jack and uncle dan
BUT I AM HAPPY.
Remember, Ootori Kyouya?
ho ho ho. I used to think germs was mad taking an anime character as her idol. Not anymore!!!!
Cos amist all of the emotional blackmail from both sides, bad aim in gunbound, hours of sitting down drawing stuff and cash flow problems,
i have decided on a life goal that is more attainable.
(:
It's going to be great if things turn out fine, but what if i applied for my dream job and i don't get it?
Well, this time round i wrote it down on my Yellow Banana Book. If i do not make it, i'll continue studying, or work a while then study.
As for $$$ wise, i will have to really work for it. I must get my back problem solved, i wanna start working in a while.
I now believe i am optimistic. I am. I used to fake optimism, but i think i am really looking at things from the more advantagous view almost all the time already.
I need to get my life back in place.
I used to read the papers everyday. I havent read it in ages. Prolly 1 month. I'll start sleeping early,
waking early,
eating properly,
learn how to cook simple dishes,
learn some basic languages,
do exercise to strengthen my core and back,
really watch my cash flow,
stretch whatever dollar i have,
learn to stay focused,
be more confident,
start treating my family nicer,
love myself more,
respect everything and everyone,
do something about time management,
learn to be more genuine,
learn to get in touch with myself,
stop being so gloomy all day,
learn to let go,
and learn to be with jack (=
Maybe it sounds like another of my crazy plans. But i know i am trying, and each time i fail i will try again, and with every try i get a little wiser
Because our youth is so shortlived, let's all live it to the fullest.
Before we step into our twenties, and that's when our priorities all change, we grow up (hopefully), and there goes our teenage years...
Sigh.
I'll just have to believe in myself.
If i do not make it, i will just pursue something else i like.
and i must learn to stop blaming other people, or letting them affect my mood.
This is a must learn!!
11:29 PM
